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Family History

I forgot about this blog. Caught myself thinking today, “I wish I had somewhere to write random blog posts”. There’s been a lot going on with pandemic and all that I could write about, but I wanted to ramble a bit about something that’s been on my mind lately, and that’s my family history.

My Japanese course finished a few weeks ago, and for my final essay I wrote about my paternal grandmother’s life. My Bachan (short for oba-chan, the Japanese term of endearment for an old woman or grandmother), who passed away in 2010, had such an interesting life. She was born in Japan, came to Canada as a teenager (alone on a ship! Her family had gone ahead of her), was put into an internment camp during the war, met my grandfather there, and moved to Toronto for the rest of her life.

My paternal grandfather (Gechan, short for oji-chan), on the other hand, was born in Canada, went back to Japan for school, and then after returning, followed a similar path.

From the trans-Pacific immigration and travel, to the vast injustices committed against Japanese-Canadians during the war, to building a new life from scratch in Toronto, my grandparents’ story is so compelling to me. But many of the details have been lost, as they’ve both passed away, as have most of my relatives in their generation.

My Japanese study has been piquing my interest even more, lately. One of the reasons I began my study was to connect with my roots. So lately, I’ve been thinking about writing an account of my grandparents’ lives, with as much detail as I can.

I’m in turns excited and discouraged about the project. Things that would be difficult:

  • It would take a lot of time, and I’m gearing up for a very busy month at work. However, as this pandemic doesn’t seem it’s going to resolve itself anytime soon, maybe it’s a good time to start.

  • As I mentioned, a lot of the knowledge has been lost. But maybe that makes it more important to preserve what’s left that we know.

  • Maybe there would be some good resources available in Japanese, but my Japanese is nowhere near good enough to be able to be reading books that aren’t really easy children’s books. Seems like a very far-off goal.

But I do think it would be a fun and enlightening and valuable (to my family, at least) project, so I’ve started collecting resources. Once I get organized, hopefully I can record interviews with various family members, and see how much of the past I can piece together.

I like to think of myself as a half-decent writer, and I’ve been itching to write something lately, but I’ve never tried my hand at writing non-fiction, nor have I even read much non-fiction. But I think like this will be a good learning experience, in many ways.

The Kishimoto family in front of their house on Clinton Street in Toronto. My grandmother’s parents are on the outsides, and my Bachan, Gechan, and five children in the middle. My dad is the one in front with the cute hat.

The Kishimoto family in front of their house on Clinton Street in Toronto. My grandmother’s parents are on the outsides, and my Bachan, Gechan, and five children in the middle. My dad is the one in front with the cute hat.

Too much music, not enough time

I have too many musical things I’d like to do.

I want to, in no particular order:

  • Learn how to play lead sheets better on piano

  • Start taking singing lessons again

  • Get my accordion fixed (the strap broke) and take at least a lesson or two to point me in the right direction

  • Learn to play the fiddle

  • Play in a band with Sam

  • Write some songs

  • Write some more piano covers

  • Just PLAY piano more

  • Sing more

  • Generally improve my musicianship

So far this year, in the spirit of my “Strengthen Foundations” resolution, I’ve been singing a lot more. I used to sing at least once a week at Countermeasure rehearsal, but not much in between that. These days I sing most days, even if only while walking to/from work. I think it’s really paying off, too - my voice feels stronger/more flexible/better than it has in awhile.

Sam and I have been playing together a lot more, too. We’ll pull up chords and lyrics for a song and he’ll play guitar or bass or ukulele and sing, and I’ll play ukulele or piano and sing. It’s good practice (and fun!) but we both have things we want to get better at.

Realistically, I may make progress on a few of these, but there’s never enough time. Oh well. As long as I’m improving, that’s good enough!

New Year, New Blog

Someone once told me that instead of making new year’s resolutions, they choose a word that they use as their mantra for the year. I’ve decided to adapt that and instead of choosing something very broad (like that) or something very specific (like a resolution), I’ve come up with some short, directive maxims that will be my inspirations for the year. I feel that they are interrelated but distinct, and so far I feel like this strategy will be an effective one for me. Already I’m more inspired by the possibilities, while less tied down by rules.

1. Find Balance.

It’s been a long time since I’ve had a good work-life balance. I left my old job, almost a year ago, because I was working too much overtime with not enough to show for it. The past year I’ve been mostly freelancing, which, if I’m honest, usually involved more of the “life” part than the “work” part (and was not, ultimately, sustainable for that reason). At the end of November I started at Ubisoft, a company at which there seems to be the possibility for reasonable work hours. So a big goal for this year is to just settle in and find a good routine of work, sleep, exercise, and fun.

2. Create More.

I was actually reasonably creative in 2019, but there are a few specific things I’d like to focus on. One of those is writing - hence setting up this blog - and the other is photography. I’ve learned about myself that to be inspired to create, I need to have a place to put my creation so that it will be seen. Maybe that’s not ideal - cue the lectures that I should be creating for myself, not other people - but whatever the reason, that’s how I operate. My music and arranging has actually been moderately fruitful because I’ve started posting to Youtube and have gotten some great feedback. I used to write all the time in my LiveJournal, but that community has disappeared, and there doesn’t seem to be a good replacement. I’m hoping that keeping this blog here on my website will be a reasonable alternative. Similarly, Facebook isn’t really a great place to put photos, and it takes so many steps to get photos from my camera to Instagram. But I’m working on optimizing that, and my parents gifted me a year’s subscription to my favourite photo editing software, and I’ve already taken more pictures on my good camera since Christmas than I have in the rest of 2019. I’ve decided to think of this blog as “some views” - that covers posting pictures AND writing. Hopefully by having this system for posting in place, it will pave the way for me to Create More.

3. Strengthen Foundations.

I am an ambitious person. I like to be good at things, and thus I sometimes jump a little farther ahead than I really have the capabilities for. For example, I was taking singing lessons a year ago with the goal of being able to sing beautifully on my own rather than as a background harmony part - but really, my tuning is not consistently accurate and that’s a much more basic skill that I should improve before worrying about being flashy. Similarly, I spent a lot of time in the fall working on memorizing and writing Japanese kanji, but my weakest skill is being able to understand simple Japanese when it is spoken to me, and that’s a much more rudimentary proficiency that it would make sense to practice first. This last goal is just a reminder to slow down, take stock, and make sure I have foundations in place that I can build on in the future.

Already I’m glad that I sat down and took the time to write out my thoughts. I haven’t quite figured out how I will let you know when I have an update here, but I do hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I did writing it, and that you’ll continue to follow along. :)